Man. Just writing that last post made me mad again. I seem to be having an unusally big emotional reaction to him (J\) for some reason. He evokes alot of anger & disgust. Could it partially be that he reminds me of my brother? After our first meeting, I had a dream about that my brother and I had a huge blowout fight. But unlike real life, I asserted myself and expressed my frustration to which (in the dream) he actually heard/understood and then went on to explain himself; he'd been under alot of stress and afraid, and worried that he might be fired from work. He then began to cry. In real life, I've never seen such a thing and we live thousands of miles away and rarely communicate at all. There seems to be a wall between us.