Okay just finished my official bonified last day of teaching school. Preparing my students for the final exam to receive their diplomas. It was actually fun and I did great! I'm so proud of myself. Who was that masked woman? Why was I so on-it? Dynamic and fun? Clear explanations and all. Well, at least I was today. Ask me tomorrow and I'm sure you'll get a whole other story. If I had lots of todays, I'd be more encouraged to continue. So, what's the variable, I wonder?

I'm still in the class now, killing time before group therapy in a couple hours, websurfing and adding to my new best friend, this bloggie thing. Been reading about 5HTP, its benefits, the way it works, FDA's opinion, etc. I stumbled on some info on Pharmaceutical anti-depressants while I was at it. I really didn't have any idea how severe side affects can be! Thank god I never started or bought into the Multi-Billion dollar industry. (I wonder how big the alternative medicine industry is? Is it an "industry?" hmm) Anyway, one webpage mentioned that Paxil has been banned in several countries siting withdrawal symptoms comparable to that of Heroin withdrawals. Geez. Is that true?! The group home that I work at prescribes these meds to the kids like candy. "Oh? You couldn't sleep last night? There, there, here's a bottle of Seroquel!" ...."Oh? You're feeling grumpy? Tsk Tsk. Take these!" "You're looking a little pudgy. Eat this Topamax....Oh the label says it's for epiliesy? Don't mind that, it will make you look better." [God forbid we have fat people around that make us uncomfortable.] These kids don't even ask for the fucking medicine. It's simply prescribed. Some of them take over 6 meds a night. Ask them why, and rarely are they able to provide an answer. (Maybe its that drug induced stupor. haha)

I guess some things are simply beyond understanding. Or maybe just belief.