It's 430am and for some reason i am still too amped to go to sleep. I guess it was too exciting of a day. Just finished reading Hannahs response to my comments. Trying not to feel bad about my probably condescending post. But I guess that's just my inner critic lashing out at my imperfection. (god forbid) I'll try to roll with it.

Anyway, I will pop back in as I remember things I meant to mention here today.

As I reread my post about J and the amorphous fear of violent men, I thought of something Howard reminded me of tonight which I'd completely forgotten! About the time we first met many years ago, I dated another man for a very short while (1 week or so) until noticing some erratic, inappropriate behaviors. Howard remembers seeing that man (Rick) in the middle of the night, outside of my apartment, in the bushes, peering into my window, and with a gun! I'm really struck by having forgotten such an event! It's surreal.

(Incidentally, that man was sent to prison not long afterwards having been convicted of a felony sexually assault.)