Hi Hannah, I'm going to take a leap here and offer some unsolicited feedback. I hope not to offend you, and if i do please forgive me. When you write about dieting, scrutinizing your foods, and labeling them as good and bad, and then consequently yourself as good and bad, it makes me shudder. I want to scream at the soceital programming that makes us determine our self worth based on size and food intake. But this paradigm can be superceded if we choose not to adhere to it!!! What is the meaning of your hunger? What is the meaning of your restriction? Do you allow yourself to have feelings, express them, feel them? Or do you try to contain & block them out? Do you have to be perfect? Maintain control? Do you take care of everyone but yourself? Do you assert & express your thoughts and feelings to those around you? Do you allow yourself and follow your hearts desires? ...These are all questions that can be intimiately connected to our relationship with food, body image and dieting. I could be way off here, and if so, please excuse my presumptiousness. But if any rings true, I'd be happy to recommend a book or two on the subject.

Warm Wishes,

Indigo :-)