positive baby steps, or denial. on one hand today felt like a breakthrough day. on the other hand, should I be cautious about overly self congratulations and be even more accountable to myself and raise self awareness of sloth, avoidance, denial, irresponsibility. things I feel good about. after not sleeping last night, I decided to not do another day of sleeping all day until 7 and 8 pm then being awake all night. previously working. more recently, just enjoying - painting, listening to spiritual discourse, indulging (for the first time ) in some Netflix shows.... on the positive, didn't eat fast food. didn't eat sugar. didn't lose my marbles at eat the household gross junk food that I repeatedly fall prey to , daily. honored my comittmet to vegetables and eggs . not processed. not sugar. I took some supplements - magnesium , himalyayn triphala,creatine, pb olive oil, honey, I took a magnesium bath, I spent time in nature videoing the flowers and leaves. I played the piano. I was sincerely happy and friendly with my mothers. grateful. almost giddy. is it weird. I researched many things. blueprint protocol. renting a cool industrial space for my secret lifelong dream of living in an artist loft and making avant garde art, movies, music, dance. photography. books. experimental experiential events. (craigslist ads). listened to Abraham hicks. geissman. learned about a democratic type of school for children and researched that interesting model of education. there's one in Bothell. but only 4 staff. I looked through an old pixiesset album randomly of proofs I shot of LWTech many years ago that I never shared with the client. it was an inspiring night. bad ass really. eye opening. etc
---- a bad day. a good. today. now.
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