it was just this morning. i was lying in bed and realizing that i'm a lot of things i always wanted to be.
i told walter the story about how i'd crashed my aunt's new red convertible (the one she'd "always wanted"). and how she never got angry with me. she never yelled. she never really seemed upset.
and how i was so afraid my mom and step dad would find out. how i'd be hung. oh the yelling i was in for.
and right then and there, i decided i wanted to be like D Aunt.
she said all that was really important was that i wasn't hurt. nobody was hurt.
and that she didn't yell, because there was no use getting upset over it. what good would it do?
she showed me how to make priorities. how to put the big things in perspective. how to realize that not everything is a CRISIS.
my mother thought dirty dishes were a crisis. anything that caused her "stress" was a crisis. and whoever was in the room was worthy of her stress relief.
i decided not to be like this.
and last night i realized i think i've fully achieve this. i'm really much more like D aunt than my mom in this respect, though it's taken conscious decision making and effort.
but i'm willing to bet...you're all those things you "want to be". i bet every choice you've made over the years was guided by these wishes of yours.
i bet you've already fulfilled everyone of those criteria you've laid out for yourself.
i realized it reading you.
but what makes the difference is you realizing it.
it was just this morning. i was lying in bed and realizing that i'm a lot of things i always wanted to be.
i told walter the story about how i'd crashed my aunt's new red convertible (the one she'd "always wanted"). and how she never got angry with me. she never yelled. she never really seemed upset.
and how i was so afraid my mom and step dad would find out. how i'd be hung. oh the yelling i was in for.
and right then and there, i decided i wanted to be like D Aunt.
she said all that was really important was that i wasn't hurt. nobody was hurt.
and that she didn't yell, because there was no use getting upset over it. what good would it do?
she showed me how to make priorities. how to put the big things in perspective. how to realize that not everything is a CRISIS.
my mother thought dirty dishes were a crisis. anything that caused her "stress" was a crisis. and whoever was in the room was worthy of her stress relief.
i decided not to be like this.
and last night i realized i think i've fully achieve this. i'm really much more like D aunt than my mom in this respect, though it's taken conscious decision making and effort.
but i'm willing to bet...you're all those things you "want to be". i bet every choice you've made over the years was guided by these wishes of yours.
i bet you've already fulfilled everyone of those criteria you've laid out for yourself.
i realized it reading you.
but what makes the difference is you realizing it.