335pm. boiling water in a pot to try to clean it before the homeowner returns on the 19th, picking up dirt when I see it. trying to keep things unscathed. the pot though, its looking black. oh uh. what to do. did I do that?> I think so. I think he'll notice. thats bad so what to do. trying to boil it while I'm boiling waiting (the bigram yoga on the tv waiting for me. taunting me. today will be day 4 since returning. committing to doing daily to feel better in my body.
standing by the boiling. feeling the heat. seeing the spritz popping out. observing the occasional slight water boil over on the side. adjusting the knobs up and down. observing the impact on the size and shape and location of the bubbles. can it be left for next hour during yoga? contemplating impacts. it occurs to me. I feel good. here. more alive? is ithe movement. the electrons. the lively buzzing. penetrates the sterile sealed contained insulated walled and roofed and floored modern box.
the reason why its lonely in a modern house with its sealed surfaces right angles insulation fabrications sealants paints and hardware vs.
nature air water grass leaves breeze brown leaves dirt animals bugs .
is in the first you feel alone. there is no signs of life . visibly .
in the 2nd you notice everything else is also alive around you , no better or more important then the other. no expectation of life. (entitlement). living . being . eating. existence.
-------------------
bikram yoga day 4
his personality is course. there is the knowledge of the exploitation. these lead to questioning doubt .I oberwrve it and release . I trust though his knowledge his vast and appreciate the transmission. its a gnat I swat and continue on.
my larger body creates obstruction to grab feet when twisting. belly block grabbing elbow over knees when on my back. etc. I note this but am satisfied grateful for the absence of strong anger self judgment. progress. I think of it as an opportunity to observe learn and window to experience first hand what I can share with others in the future how to travel this path more peacefully with awareness . cool
------ starting Noelle meditation--
a great idea. film /document every pair of hands of product from inception to delivery to customer. ie: blue lotus flower. from the lands. from the picking. from the driving. from the loading. from the packaging. from the Mail person. from the user opening package and placing into cup. etc.
------
the problem with social media fitness content/influencer messages. and why its not as motivating useful effective for change as one might imagine. is that its focus and places attention on external. whereas momentum comes from the experience. the feeling in the body. even incremental experience internally is like 1000 roaring animals vs the far cry of an unidentified animal bark in the dark.
------------
born. lived. death. rebirth. (4 Egyptian cycles.)
in every 1 day. sun is born and ides. not to be taken for granted. and opportunity. to appreciate.
every day we come back into a state of creation.
resWet: means to awaken in Egyptian. dream. you can not dream in Egyptian culture. its something you receive. not something you do. its a gift from the gods that you receive. unflattering patterns and habits is semiconscious dreaming. temple of dreams is a method of healing. purify self with sacred water in a bath. then place into specific chambers where the water from bath is charged by being poured over hieroglyphics. return to that room with a prayer and intention to receive a dream vision message from Hathor, the divine mother of love and healing, or isis who is another manifestation of divine mother, go into that chamber, tell the dream to priestess, and he priestess is a dream interpreter the symbols/symbology, then prescribes medical txs and mantras to release whatever energy that is keeping them bound in some kind of way, scared rituals that is specific to them given by the goddess, a unique situation given, this kind of dream practice can be supported and furthered by the teachers in in the dream space like
blue lotus, mugwort, chamomile.
we're already lived through this many times. we can ask for support. but we are also our support. we will always have teachers. and we are also the teacher. and understand our own symbols.
-------------------------------DREAMS-----
receivership is the norm. (type 1)
prophetic dream (type 2) in future, may "break the rules" and ask for a a prophetic dream. dreams of the future. you are given the option, the crossroads to determine yourself, is that the path I'm going to make consciously. the energy is much different . subconscious dreams the energy is heavier its like normal life almost - still some chaos. unknown. density. thickness. vs charged. electrical phrenetic dream. a pulse that you can feel when you're aware. because you're receiving the information of the potential future. which lives in plasma. the potential state.
==========3rd type of dream.
astral lessons. in the astral plane. the non 3-d space. we are changed overnight. thats a gift. wake up transformed. fear can block specifics, details.
non 3d space can have schools in astral space. you can have meetings with your own higher self when you're focused on having this experience. unique to you. perfect for you. you have to be open to receiving a teaching. as many being are able to teach you will come forward to teach you.
many beings are with us and want to teach us . from love.
most be conscious of these dreams to apply them. (aware in our waking life & choosing to pay attention. ) its a practice of awareness.
deeply conscious + relaxed state = keeping lucid.
(vs oblivion in sleep). thats why meditation helps us practice being highly aware, but not asleep. this changes our dream state. and we can remember more easily bcz we are practicing in waking life.
----------------------------------
beta daily life ---> alpha flow creative ---> theta. delta a light sleep
goal is a light sleep but conscious. you're in a state of creation. definition of dytption dream is to awaken. which is the truth of who you are and what life is.
==================
state of receiving: you don't go looking for it. because it will run away if you do.
--------------------------------
realtionship
earth realm is about relationship. thats the gift. we are ahere to experience in relation. creation . life. growth. into the unknown. dar===... the impulse. to expand. fundamental. push. microscopic. microscopic. forward. up. out. beyond. shift. from the darkness. from the nothing. from the void. nothing into nothing. from consciousness. consciousness. energy. keeps. dares. continues. into the unknown. with al the emotional. persists. persists. hope? no. thats too sophisticated. more primal. fundamental. growth. expansion. upwards. outwards. beyond. receive. receiving. lessons. lessons can't be known before hands. thats control. open hands. growth. receiverships. growth. appreciation. genltessnesss. appreciation the heart that is our link to life and spirit. mediated deeply on that heart. which we are. silently beneath the body suit. intricate ecostyems of threads and systems and networks. entire universes in the body. echoing. systems. fractals . patterns. awarenessness. unknown. thank you. receiving. perfections. of unknown. and growth. this moment. this body. combined with unkwnon. words do not encompesss. s. coherence. growth. alignments of energy systems . x
----------------------------
"thank you for your big hearts"
No comments:
Post a Comment