Another freakishly awesome day. This is worrisome since that usually means a nasty crash & burn is right around the corner, as the violent plummet to the ground is inevitably a long and ugly one.

Why so good today? Maybe that daily 100mg of that 5HTP stuff is kicken in or something. Or maybe its because men are validating me again after years of relative isolation. Or maybe because my teaching job ended last week and I have free time during the day again. Or maybe because finally my bank account is not overdrawn after having gotten paychecks last week. Or maybe my therapy is finally affecting my state of mind. Or most likely, maybe the stars and moon are in perfect alignment. Whatever it is, please don't go away.

I really like this C guy from the club. We spoke briefly tonight after therapy before work.. Wow. What a connection. It flows, it feels good, it feels positive, it feels sexy. Wow.

Met a J guy on the phone tonight. So young. So simple. He's into cars and working out and just got out of the military. I know there's no purpose in engaging much with him & I'm sure he wouldn't be into me anyway if we actually met in person and he saw how fat I am. But, oh well, its amusing if just for a minute.
Got a dry ltr of interest from a Dr. Tonight. I am flattered and shocked and wondering, am I misleading in my personal ad or something? What else could explain my attracting doctors and psychiatrists and executives and the like. Yikes.

An aside though, I'm noticing this pattern; the intelligent professional men are seeming so unremarkably safe and plain and emotionless. Does med school somehow kill the right-brain and leave you with a passionless clinical mind? I do think there's something to be said for getting a little buckwild and inappropriate once (or lots) in a while. Don't you think? Me? I just gotta be able to get stupid with the man I love...