Insatiable Hunger

I think I've been eating to change my mood lately.  Desperate attempts to seize respite, restore calm. And I do deflect the unpleasantness -  for a moment.  Then, despite my determination,  in a spike rushes back the ugliness, the discomfort, the rage.  Like a host of other frailties, food also is an addictive mood altering medium, and it works - otherwise why would people use it?  Unfortunately, it leaves me feeling sick, mad at myself and dissapointed.  Time for an overhaul.  I've been wading deep into dangerous waters but am ready to turn back.