who am i becoming

am i turning into a jerk?

 

i'm not sure if i care what people think of me anymore

 

i'm not sure i care about appearing "nice"

 

work is really wearing on me

 

i am tired of the these unrealistic arbitrary unfair demands

 

covering for others who are not held responsible - working 2-3 times harder than others because they are not held accountable - because they are talking all day on their cell phone - because they walk away on their desks for extended unnaccounted for breaks - because they blatantly ignore students and phone calls and they are left standing standing standing unless i alone acknowledge/help them 

 

i am so frustrated

 

i have been feeling trapped in here

 

put out many resumes with little/no response

 

what's next? what do i do now? how do i get out of here? what will i make of my life? where am i going