So, it's been a couple years.
Time is crazy. Time is SO crazy man.
I started this in 2004? That's what the archives on the border of this page say. Can that be true?
10 years? 10 years?!
Crazy.
I turned 40 this year. Am I the same person as when I began this blog? How will my writing compare? I'd have to guess that I'm a little less naive today then when I started.
A little harder.
A little more resigned to 'what will be will be'.
I'm avoiding saying 'cynical', but, in all truth, my awareness of moments of bitterness worry me. I don't want to become a cliche. Angry, old, ugly, childless fat lady. Is that me? Perhaps. In my mind. Sometimes. But it's all a state of mind. And I work diligently on staying present, and hopeful, and activated in my own life, even if it's in just the tiniest of ways. Other times, in my mind, I am light and vibrant, optimistic and connected, and generally filled with awesome.
Can't type much more now - due to MIXED COMPANY... ha. but. perhaps i'll be back soon. perhaps i'll visit more often? Perhaps i'll fire up the ol' blogging kiln? It's certainly a different blogging landscape today in 2014 then 2004. I would be SHOCKED if a single person saw and read this. But that's ok. I'm not here for attention. I'm here for.....
me?
Time is crazy. Time is SO crazy man.
I started this in 2004? That's what the archives on the border of this page say. Can that be true?
10 years? 10 years?!
Crazy.
I turned 40 this year. Am I the same person as when I began this blog? How will my writing compare? I'd have to guess that I'm a little less naive today then when I started.
A little harder.
A little more resigned to 'what will be will be'.
I'm avoiding saying 'cynical', but, in all truth, my awareness of moments of bitterness worry me. I don't want to become a cliche. Angry, old, ugly, childless fat lady. Is that me? Perhaps. In my mind. Sometimes. But it's all a state of mind. And I work diligently on staying present, and hopeful, and activated in my own life, even if it's in just the tiniest of ways. Other times, in my mind, I am light and vibrant, optimistic and connected, and generally filled with awesome.
Can't type much more now - due to MIXED COMPANY... ha. but. perhaps i'll be back soon. perhaps i'll visit more often? Perhaps i'll fire up the ol' blogging kiln? It's certainly a different blogging landscape today in 2014 then 2004. I would be SHOCKED if a single person saw and read this. But that's ok. I'm not here for attention. I'm here for.....
me?
